2010; A year in Review

6th annual year in Review

What did you do in 2010 that you've never done before?
Became self employed!

Did you keep your New Year's resolutions and will you make more for next year?
My only resolution was not to have any, and I kept that. I am going to stick with that one. Same as last year... and the year before... and the year before that.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, a few friends.

Did anyone close to you die?
No, another good year.

What countries did you visit?
None.

What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
A baby. Pretty much never goes away for me.

What date from 2010 will remain etched in your memory and why?
August 23rd. Turned 30 years old.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Again becoming self employed. Completing the Insanity program all the way through.

What was your biggest failure?
hmm, I don't know of anything that was failed that i didn't choose to end. Same as last year. And the year before. And the year before that.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
pretty healthy year. Thank you God, family has been healthy as well.

What was the best thing you bought?
a new car. Just recently.

Where did most of your money go?
Bills. As usual. Didn't really shop much, not too fond of it actually.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My new job.

What scripture is a theme of 2010?
James 1: 2-4 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." Same every year.

Compared to this time last year are you:
a. Happier or sadder? Probably happier because of the new job.
b. Thinner or fatter? Thinner after completing Insanity.
c. Richer or poorer? I suppose slightly richer. Also rich with blessings and family.
What do you wish you'd done more of?
Always spend more time with my family. And say no more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Committees, but I recently reduced those.

How did you spend Christmas?
With my family!!! 3 days in a row and mine and Steven's parents and then home for Christmas with the kiddos. Just the way we like it.

Did you fall in love in 2010?
Stayed in love with the same man for going on 14 years.

What was your favorite TV show?
No longer have cable. But watched two season of Dexter on Netflix.

What was the best book you read?
Read a few autobiography's. Guess it's my new thing.

What was your greatest musical discovery of 2010?
Still realizing the Old Rock is what I like. Not liking the new music very much. Will Smith's daughter Willow is apparently very talented though. She is only 9 years old.

What did you want and get?
New job, less stress.

What did you want and not get?
Always want a Baby.

What was your favorite film this year?
Eclipse

What did you do on your birthday?
Steven made lasagna and we had a small party with some church family.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I would say a baby but I realize that is in God's hands.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Comfy but trendy. Still the same.

What kept you sane?
Alone time, family time, sleep, massages, church, and working out.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
none I suppose.

What political issue stirred you the most?
economy

Who did you miss?
Still the same, my friends from home, and family.

Who was the best new person you met?
New clients and their families. Some great derby mates.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.
It's ok to say no. Other people can step up too. I will keep that one from last year but also add... Good things come to those who wait.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Well some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown
So I've started out, for God knows where
I guess I'll know when I get there" Tom Petty, Learning to Fly

Christmas

Overall, this Christmas has been one of the best. We celebrated with three days of family time. Thursday we went to Oklahoma to my parents house and then Friday at Steven's parents. On the way out of Arkansas we picked up a car we test drove the day before. Technically it wasn't a "present" because we were going to get one next month anyways because I drive everywhere for my job and needed something with better gas mileage. Steven had been looking online at a lot and found this one and a couple of others to go look at. This one I fell in love with pretty quick but didn't want to jump in impulsively so I told him we would go look at another and then make the decision. We did and I decided on the one we got. The inside was awesome. So we called the dealer back and said we would come get it the next day.

The kids got all kinds of stuff, enough for them to not to complain of boredom for a long time. Not that they really do that. Steven got to see his best friend Jason who is in the military and his wife and friend of mine, Ashley. It was a short visit but it was nice to get to see them both. Saturday we spent the day at home with just us. Now it's already the 27th and I realize the feeling that I have for weeks before Christmas is not because I don't want it to come, it's dreading the part when it's over. :(

Ryker's new lego and train storage play thing.
I actually put it together myself.














My new Bible. First one in 13 years.

The Devil uses Depression

Interesting watch and good insight.

Brunette!

Time for a change! Although, few have even noticed... except my husband. When I walked through the door his eyes were huge. I like it. I don't think I have ever been this color.

Lazy Day!

Love these. One of the perks to my new job is that I get to set my own schedule. Since I started I made Fridays a no work day unless I am just doing stuff from home like notes and phone calls. For the most part I do my notes the day of my sessions so that leaves mostly phone calls and maybe emails. Today I have none... so far. This week has been on the more stressful end for this particular job. Had my first court hearing as a therapist. Different hat since I last testified which was as a caseworker for DHS. It's hard to believe I did that on a weekly basis and usually for at least 4 cases a week. Oy!

Tonight I promised the kiddos a Christmas Slumber Party. Their Daddy has been helping my Father in law on Saturdays in Oklahoma for work so he goes down on Friday night. Good news is each year he does this and we have no debt from Christmas whatsoever! So for the party we will be watching Christmas movies, eating popcorn, and making and decorating Christmas cookies. Yesterday was Gage and Kieran's Christmas party at school. Steven, Ryker, and I met them and took part as well. Today they get to wear PJ's to school. I am still in mine as I type this. :)

Yay to lazy days!

Perfection...

I love Celtic Women.

A year of Facebook status updates

Pretty cool, although I swore I posted more than this. I know I had a lot in my head, just not sure if they ever made it out.

A little behind...

Kieran's birthday party pics. She also got her ears pierced by my sister Kelsey and didn't cry and flinch.

Happy Birthday Kieran! Dec 3

Doing this the night before in case I don't get a chance tomorrow. We had her's and Zoe's birthday party last weekend while in Oklahoma. I will post pics of those later as well. Tomorrow I will be picking the kids up early from school to go eat lunch. Normally I would just go eat with her but since Bentonville is getting out early for the State football championship, I figured it best to just go get them. We will make a short day of shopping I am sure. I don't do long days of shopping. It's just not me.

Anyways, Happy Birthday Kieran! Love you! Hard to believe you are 7 already.

30 days of thanks!!

This month marks the time for us to acknowledge and give thanks for all the blessings God has so generously bestowed onto us. Not just on Thanksgiving but everyday.

1. Relative ease that I came to be a Christian. Raised in a Christian home, saved at the age of 6 because it came so simple to me. God was there from the beginning.

2. My family of origin... parents, siblings, and grandparents.

3. My chosen family. Husband and his family, whom I am thankful raised Steven the way they did and helped him to be a good father and husband.

4. My given family or my children. Never a day goes by that I am not thankful for each one of them. They keep me going.

5. My church family. God has led us to an amazing close church home.

6. My home and basic needs met. Plain and simple.

7. Good health for myself and my family.

8. My job. While new, I am finding I love it.

9. My education. Glad I pushed through.

10. My hobbies, derby, exercise, reading, graphic art, etc. helps me to unwind.

11. Sleep - Need I say more!

12. My friends. They are truly a blessing to me.

13. My ability to organize.

14. My discernment. I need it daily and always could use more, but thankful for what I do have.

15. My kids' school and preschool. It's nice to be able to send them out and trust that they are well cared for with someone I trust.

16. My ability to come up with solutions quickly, or my Macgyver ability.

17. Vehicles that run...knock on wood.

18. A yard for the kids to play in and a fairly safe community that appears family oriented and that doesn't shun God.

19. Art. God's art. Walking outside to a beautiful sky or at this time of year, beautiful changing leaves.

20. Good Music.

21. To live in a free country where I am free to complain about it.

22. My dreams. I am convinced I am different than most on this and won't elaborate.

23. My physicality/athleticism. Hope I can keep it up. Would be nice to be the old granny who could break dance.

24. My empathy. Makes me decent at my job. And yes, some do not have this.

25. Thankful for the fact I hate alcohol.

26. Thankful I stayed away from all drugs. Don't regret not trying any or cigarettes. Still don't get why most have to.

27. Decent hair. Could always change though, lol.

28. Thankful I FAILED the NAVY. (discharged for health reasons that have since resolved themselves) Wouldn't be where I am today.

29. Thankful for my senses. So much beauty in this world and I am glad to be able to enjoy them. Ah... the smell of fireplaces and wood burning on a cool crisp evening or after the rain. I could go on.

30. Above all... GOD, who continues to bless me with so many awesome things.

28 things

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 28 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 28 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. (To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 28 random things, tag 28 people then click publish.)



1. When I was 12 years old I was shot in the foot with an arrow by one of my brothers friends. Went all the way through and I ended up having surgery and missed out on Halloween that year because I was in the hospital. To this day I somewhat cringe when someone mentions shooting arrows but I don't fear them and could probably learn to shoot them if I wanted.


2. I am extremely introverted. Every personality test I am on the extreme end of it. Many people do not know this because I overcome it after awhile. But yes people drain me after awhile. Husband is the extrovert.


3. I get along better with guys and always have. They are more honest to your face. I do appreciate the females that are this way as well.


4. I am good at reading people but have been told I am hard to read. You can thank my awesome wall for that. It's great at letting few in.


5. I don't really care for shopping, unless you count online. Must be that introvert thing again.


6. I have been a Christian since I was 6 years old. Most people confuse me with being Religious. I am spiritual. There is a difference.


7. I have an inventors mind. I have several inventions in there. Some I think are pretty awesome and could save lives. My Mother even agrees. Sadly I haven't the money to get them patented and going.


8. I met my husband in high school, but knew his Mother from Junior high from a church camp I went to.


9. I abhor alcohol... the smell, the taste, yuck. Haven't drank a drop in 5 years. Pretty sure I never really liked it.


10. My parents have worked for the same liquor company for over 20 something years.


11. I am artsy. I love to paint and do stuff with chalk. I used to draw a lot when I was younger. Used to want to be an artist before I realized there is not much future for the majority of them.


12. I love children and I have never felt "done" nor will I ever. I suffer from Duggaritis but my husband and body limit me.


13. When I was young I didn't think I wanted children.


14. I rarely ever studied for tests or took any homework home before college. Apparently I didn't "apply" myself and didn't realize my potential until College. Sorry Mom.


15. I am very competitive with myself. If I set my mind to something it will get done if I have the tools to do it.


16. I have a huge appetite and always have, usually only 1 big meal a day though, the rest are small. I was the kid who would eat everyone's pizza at lunch if they would let me. It's also the reason that I work out a lot.


17. I hate watching sports on TV. Football, basketball, or what not. Live is fun. But I am also the type to rather be out there playing than watch from a box and yell at it like I could do better if I were out there. I would rather like to see if I could.


18. I once played on a mostly all boy pee wee baseball team and out ran them all one at a time. I would have loved to play football.


19. I hate rudeness and disrespect. Pet peeves 1 and 2. It is not an honest trait and is actually a lack of a social skill people.


20. I can block out noise so much as I don't hear "ssshhhhh" then I flip.


21. It takes a lot to make me angry, but I have a bad temper the rare times I get mad.


22. I used to have a hard time saying "No". I use it a lot now and it's freeing.


23. Don't ever try to scare me. My instincts are set on fight mode. My husband learned this the hard way.


24. I am very organized and somewhat OCD. Gets worse as I get older. I give up around my home and family though. They balance me with their constant disorganization and messiness.


25. I like being early and feel anxious even if I am 5 minutes late to something.


26. I am legally blind in one eye.


27. I like foreign horror films.


28. I have a very vivid imagination, had it since I was little. It's how I treated my insomnia.

I did it!

Well one day away anyway. Tomorrow will be the last day for the Insanity program. This week has been killer. I will still do the workouts here and there and mix them up with the dozens of other workouts I have, but I am not doing the program straight through, at least not for awhile. It definitely is good for defining. I have this line down my abs that I am not sure if I have ever had. Steven told me I am not allowed to get a 6 pack, he says it just doesn't look right on a female. I will work on the 4 pack then, lol. Also liking my arms and legs right now. I am not about to stop for the holidays either and risk starting all over. As it is right now I feel guilty if I miss a workout. Another milestone is I can do more push ups in a minute than I was able to do when I went to the NAVY. Up to 54 with a pause or two in there, and yes these are not with knees. As far as weight, I quit using my scale a long time ago. When you do a program like this you will gain muscle which weighs more than fat. I have lost inches though, particularly in my stomach, back, butt, hips, and legs. May have actually gained some in my arms and calves, not complaining there. For the first time in like forever my shins don't kill me. They sometimes get sore but are quick to recover. Overall, I am pleased with my progress and not even close to thinking about letting up.

On another note, Happy Birthday Mom!

So proud!

I cannot tell you how proud I am of my home town today. A few women and children (how sad) from Westboro did show up today in protest. I wonder if these individuals or this church ever realizes that they are only creating the opposite affect then what they had intended. Their anger and hatred brought more people together and garnered more support from this town more than I have ever seen. Another ironic thought is these people have probably never won one person over to their side in the midst of their rants. They are failing themselves and their intended purpose yet God is still bringing out good in the situation. And I am pretty certain that they will think twice about coming to this town again for the same reason. Below are some pics of just a small amount of the support that was there. Pics are taken by my friend Shae Lenardo .

Shae on the right



Apparently the motorcycles helped to drown out the protesters







Very touching pic

Do not feed the hate!

I cannot tell you how it breaks me heart when I hear of soldier’s funerals being picketed by the Westboro Baptist Church. On Saturday November 13th, 2 days after Veteran’s Day they will be at my home town picketing the funeral of Sgt. Jason McCluskey at 9:15am at the First Baptist Church in McAlester. Many friends and family of course will be there as support and are planning to make a human fence to help keep them as far away as possible.

These people thrive on hate and do NOT represent what Christianity is by any means as well as the Baptist religion. They are in basic terms, attention seekers. The verses they quote are misinterpreted and the very least abused out of context. God hates no one! God is love! He hates sin not the sinner. “…Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone...” John 8:7.

These individuals want nothing more than everyone’s backlash. They want to be physically attacked so they can “show” everyone just how right they are. I know it makes no sense to the typical person with sense. I am not going to go on a tirade about what should be done to these individual’s, it is not for me to decide. But I ask, please refrain from any type of physical retribution. This goes for the individuals who are threatening to “punch” or worse. You have every right to feel angry with them, but don’t feed their hate by turning your anger into hate as well. I can’t imagine what it must be like to go everyday with this all consuming hate towards people and claim that it’s in the name of Jesus Christ. Will they ever realize they are wrong? Unfortunately, only after it is too late. So do not waste one ounce of energy hating them or trying to get back at them. It will be in vain. Honor this soldier and be there for the family. Make your wall, it and in itself is an awesome way to stand up for him and the rights he and other fellow soldiers have fought for that these individuals abuse and take for granted. Let their energy be in vain.

Girls invite

Trying not to jinx myself!

Yesterday I went and got my last check from Vista. This was my saved up days off check. The main reason I gave a months notice was so that I could get these. So how is my new job going? So far pretty darn good. I drive a lot. Much like when I worked at DHS. But I get paid for it so I am not complaining. My day usually consists of doing two families. One in the morning and then one either in the afternoon or evening. I am in the homes for 2-3 hours at a time. I also go and visit some kids in their schools. I don't have to get up so early and that is an added bonus. I work Monday - Thursday and I am able to pick Gage and Kieran up from school 3 days a week. And as far as the actual therapy I love it! I think this is my style from start to finish. My only fear is I don't jinx myself. I hate taking things for granted because they can so easily be taken away, but it would be nice if I can relax a little about this.

I can't believe Christmas is right around the corner. Which also means Kieran's birthday is even closer. She and her cousin Zoe will be having a combined Monkey Party since they are both turning 7. Kieran on Dec. 3, and Zoe, I think Nov. 7?? The party will be Saturday the 27th and we are going to have it in Oklahoma this year at my Mother in Laws. Thinking I may actually do the shopping today to give me something to do, otherwise today is going to be a total lazy day. Steven went on the Men's "retreat" last night and today and they spent a great deal of time shooting guns. Now he is home and conked out on the chair. From what he said it was pretty chilly so I am not feeling like I missed out on anything. Not a big fan of the cold. Therefore, I am also not looking forward to the winter, although they said it is supposed to be a mild one this year. That could be good and bad. Ice storms occur when it's mild. So just a head's up.

Belated Fall Festival / Halloween post

Sorry life happens. We of coarse had a blast. Kieran went as a "Queen Bee", I made her crown and wings last minute with some toile from one of my sisters dress and some black panty hose and her bridesmaid flowers I had in my closet. Yes I am Macgyver.

Ryker went as Dash (The Incredibles) dressed up as a dragon. Yes, even Dash has to dress up for Halloween. Mostly because he would be running all over the place and the dragon one would not stay on all night.

Gage didn't dress up. Guess he has grown out of it. His own choice.

Fall holiday!

We took a small getaway this evening to the Ft. Smith Lake State Park. I wanted to see the trees before they were no longer pretty to look at. The weather here was perfect as it was in a bowl keeping the wind out. God some cute pics too. Here are just a few.

Fall peace...

Well this week was my first full week on my new job. I am definitely enjoying the perks of it, there are of course some down sides. While I cannot go into specifics, let me just say due to some emergency issues at one home, I was there for a total of 4 hours one day.

I am starting to adjust and get into the groove of everything and almost have a system of organization going. If you know me at all, you know when it comes to work or other outside home endeavors I am extremely organized. In the home well I am surrounded by a husband and 3 children who are not. It's a losing battle day in and day out trying to keep organization in the home. I have however put my foot down on my "home office". I told Steven it is just like when I was at work and everything is where I need it and meticulous. Needless to say he uses the other computer for his needs.

I am currently working with 4 families which is the maximum I am allowed to have. I have it to where I see them Mon-Thu and leave Friday to work from home doing paperwork and phone calls. I may end up going down a family after awhile. But for right now, it's not too much. The initial intake's are very tedious with the paperwork, but I am finding that once those are over it's not that bad. One big plus is I was able to pick Gage and Kieran up from school everyday this week. Granted I drove all over God's green earth going to homes, then to Ryker's prek in Farmington, and then picking them up in Bentonville. We will soon be investing in a good car for me so it won't be so bad.

Today has been a lazy day. Steven is again in Oklahoma helping his Dad out. The kids and I just have been hanging out. Last night we made it a night of movie rentals. Due to the rain I haven't felt much like doing anything. I was kind of hoping to take them to the Ft. Smith lake this weekend if it was sunny to look at the trees. Hopefully we can do that next week before they are no longer pretty.

Been thinking a lot of next year. I am going to name the year, the year of peace. My goal is to try and reduce the stress in my life. Including the busy stuff I no longer need. The job switch was the number one switch. Others include some committees I will let go of. I am also considering letting go of the non-profit. Either by allowing some one else to take it over OR just letting it go back to the non-profit without 501(c)3 status. It's not really done much for benefiting since I am not doing grants. The yearly paperwork is annoying and with me fixing to have to do my taxes for my job this will just add to stress if I don't let this go. Regardless the website will stay and still be a resource. I still haven't made the decision yet, just thinking out loud.

Either way, I will be working to reduce stress in the next year. God will decide for me what needs to go and what needs to stay.

Mind, body, and spirit...

This weekend has been absolutely amazing! Thursday I left with the women of our church to the Ft. Smith Lake for our first annual women's retreat. The lodge we stayed in was absolutely amazing. I took some pics with my phone and will hopefully have them posted on here soon. The lodge was able to sleep 32 and we had around 20. I even had my own private sleeping room. The weather was gorgeous! We ate outside with most of our meals. We stayed pretty busy the whole time and had lots to do from 8 a.m. until I conked around midnight both nights. We laughed a lot and got to grow closer to one another as well as with God. Friday during our down time I was going to do an Insanity workout with 2 of the other ladies but couldn't get it to work so we decided to go hiking instead. I took off before the others and got to spend some great time outdoors. I followed a trail which lead me to the top of the bluff over the mountain which had a breathtaking view of the lake and park. The others later met me up there and we just lounged around. Couldn't have asked for better weather. Later we did a picture scavenger hunt that was probably the funnest and funniest one I have ever done. There was so much more but there is no way I can list them all. We did decide to do it again next year same time. I can't wait. I told my sister she is coming with me.

We got home on Saturday and I was beyond exhausted! I took a long nap and my sister and her hubby later came for the night. I stayed up late again watching Letters to God, which is an amazing movie but will make you cry definitely. I took another long nap after my sister left today after lunch. Finished my Insanity workout and now I am just relaxing. I am not dreading tomorrow like I usually do when Mondays are right around the corner. I am sure much has to do with the fact that this next week is my last week at Vista. Of course I am nervous about my new job, but I have also already started it so I know what to expect. I will just be adding 2-3 more families to it. I am sure it will be fine and still much less stress than what I have been doing for the past 2+ years.

ahhhhhhh...... (relaxing sigh)

Yay for 10/10/10!

Ah those times when everything seems to slow down...

But not in a good way. I officially have 2 weeks left until I only have 1 job. Good news is I have a renewed energy at Vh because I know there is an end in site. The added pep in my step is helping with my efficiency, however today was somewhat of a nightmare. I was scatterbrained and left some paperwork at home this morning that I needed specifically for a noon appointment, therefore had to scurry around and make a trip home to get them all the while trying to squeeze all my Friday work in before noon. I calmed myself down later by taking Ryker to the park on our way home. Good thing to considering the traffic at only 4:30 p.m. was ridiculous due to motorcycle accidents backing up traffic. One of the downsides of Bikes Blues and BBQ.

As for the taste of my new job, I love it. It is definitely my style. I am starting to realize though while I will be working less, most of my hours will probably be in the evenings after kids come home from school. In the summers it will be really nice though.

Right now I am getting my insanity workouts done far later than I prefer but I am getting them done. I will be entering week 5 recovery week in a day or so, and I am looking forward to that.

Another side note, I ordered my dress for the derby ball. I am going short this year. Last ball's dress can't be outdone but it was huge and hard to maneuver. I also want to be able to dance in it with out it dragging. Ironically the ball is the day after my last day at Vh.

Yay, for October!

Bittersweet day...

Today Gage turned 10 years old. I am so proud to be his Mother and now for 10 years, but I can't help but be saddened at how fast it has gone. :( Ryker turned 4 last Sunday and I am having a hard time adjusting to not having a baby. I am not liking it honestly.

This weekend has been nice. Yesterday we had the boys birthday party and it went great. It was amazing weather, couldn't have asked for better. Today was a bit cooler but ok. Fall is definitely here. We took the kiddos to jump zone as a surprise and of course gave me the nice adrenaline rush for the day by making me go down the ship with Ryker around 10 times. I swear I thought we were going to fly off. It was fun though. Steven, took some videos of the weekend, so hopefully I will have some to post soon.

This month is also a reminder of the birth and death of a dear friend who is no longer with us. Miss you Tommy. Love you!

Transitioning

This week has been so long, but so exciting. I was offered a job doing independent contracts for the state in intensive in home therapy. This job will allow me to set my own schedule and be able to stay home with Ryker some days and be able to pick the other two up from school. Basically I can work a lot less and make more money. So yes, I of course jumped on it and put my month's notice in at work. I will go ahead and start with a family next week and ease into it. I will work up to about 4 families. The kicker is since I am basically working for myself I will be able to start my private practice soon. One down side is I will have to pay my own taxes, but so worth it. My last day at Vista will be October 15th.

So excited!!

Over a week in...

Of Insanity that is. The first couple of days my calves were so sore. Not unusual for me as they are usually the weakest part of my body. The workouts are definitely tough and I can finally say that I have found something that gets my heart pumping like derby. I have never been one to want to run a marathon, mainly because I am a cheetah who is built for speed and well, marathons are not for those. Good news is this workout is exactly what I need and by the time I finish the program I will have felt better than if I ran 5 marathons!!

Insanity!!!

Guess who is jumping on the insanity bandwagon???? Yep, you guessed it. I should be getting my set up tomorrow and will start then as well. I was finding it rather difficult to find something at home that could get my heart racing like it does when I skate, so I figured what they heck. Speaking of skating I am glad to be getting in the groove again. Sometimes the best way to draw closer to something is to take a step back from it. The new home team thing is very interesting. The four teams all have names now. The Heartbreak Rollers (my team of coarse), Hardwood Hustlers (Green), Gatling Girls (pink), you know like the Gatling gun, and the Pistol Whips (Blue). Season starts in January. Hopefully by then my life won't be going in 12 different directions. I keep saying I need to drop somethings but they are all important to me. However, one of them is on a 3 year rotation and will be coming to an end in December. However, it wasn't much of a time commitment so I am not sparing a whole lot of time there, plus it's a church thing so I will just put my energy in through other ways. Speaking of energy, mine is drained and I am going to head off the bed early for a change.

Night!

Getting a jump start...

The boys saw this and got super excited!

30th Birthday!

Post is a little late but as usual this week has been super busy. Last weekend was so nice. Best weekend in a long time. Very stress free. Last Friday I took off work early and went shopping. I hardly do that ever, but it was good, just me, perfect for an introvert. Saturday was my birthday dinner that Steven had planned. He cooked a bunch of lasagna and spaghetti. He invited out Sunday school couples class and it was a blast. We played some board games after we ate. I like simplicity obviously. The kids had their own pizza party and played games. Sunday I decided to try and make it practice and ease back in after my LOA. Our new coach has done a great job putting us all to work and even my 6 day a week workout schedule didn't quite prepare my lungs for the extensive cardio. Nothing I can do at home is even close to what I can do at derby speeding around. But good news is I kept up and didn't die, so I was happy.

This weekend is pretty lazy. I needed it. Work is still super stressful and only getting worse now that school has started again. I realize it will never get easier, even with my super efficiency. Efficiency cannot cure stressful situations, which happen daily at work. Kids are doing well at school. Gage has not gotten in trouble yet (knock on wood) and happens to be the only boy in his class that can say that. Kieran has actually gotten in trouble a couple of times for talking (doesn't surprise me). It's a new thing for her considering she never once got in trouble last year.

So it looks like September is right around the corner and I need to start planning Gage and Ryker's Mario Birthday Party. Will try and get the invites made soon. My camera has sucked for quite sometime and I need a new one bad.

Here are a couple of pics from my birthday.

Cherry Blossom cake



Pic with Kieran, notice my 30th birthday necklace from my Sunday school teachers.

Before I forget...

Kids started school this week. I am not one of those mom's who looks forward to it. But at least they are. Ryker though, missed them badly when he had to go to daycare. He held on to me longer than usual.

First day, Ryker couldn't wake up.



Bubba tried to help him.



Yesterday was the start of my birthday weekend. My co-workers got me a coffee and a really neat hygiene carry all for my traveling, as well as some other goodies.
Tonight is my birthday dinner. Steven has been cooking all day. Some of the others are bringing other stuff. Hopefully I will have some pics later.

P.S. I totally forgot but I got placed on the Red team in derby for the new home team season. Out new name is the Heartbreak Rollers. I love it. Hoping to ease back into practice soon. May even try to go tomorrow. There are also 3 other teams, Pink, Green, and Blue. The league is growing so much, it's awesome.

Happy Anniversary!!!

Today is our 11th wedding anniversary. Together 13 years total. Getting closer to calling it half my life with this man. Of coarse with my anniversary comes a really bad pulled back muscle from this morning making it difficult to even move. Can't even walk around the block so it's keeping me from everything. I broke down on our way to getting some heating pads and arnica. First cry I have had in probably a year. Between it and the tension headache that finally went away after two weeks, and the possible ulcer I have, this was the final straw. I can't even take NSAIDs right now due to possible upsetting of the ulcer. Murphy's Law has been pegging me big time. I even spent $45 dollars worth of lingerie at a slumber party last night that will have to wait until after I am no longer lame. I also signed up to host a party on October 22nd. I figure it will be fun if I can get a decent amount of ladies to go. I don't do much social stuff outside of derby anymore. Sadly, don't do enough inside as well. I blame that on my INFJ personality type.

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Dance your cares away, worries for another day!

Yeah it's been one of those Mondays. Probably one of the most stressful in a long time. Granted it would have been worse if I hadn't prayed to God to help me through all of it. So after dinner, with my lacking motivation for exercise, I decide to just turn on my dance mix and I ended up breaking a sweat for nearly 90 minutes. I need to do this more often. No tapes, no choreography, just my music and me.


Fraggle Rock had it right all along.

Blah!

This week has been one of the most stressful weeks of this whole year. While I cannot go into the other additions to my stress (other than the usual work), I will just say I am on several committee's and this week decided to show me just how much I can or cannot handle. The tension headache started on Monday and I still have some residual effects from it. I cannot remember the last time I got one of these, but they are not your typical headache. They don't go away. Before only muscle relaxers would held. I really do not want to have to do that again, so I am trying as many natural remedies as I can. Thursday I got desperate and took some cheap Excedrin Extra strength and the aspirin upset my stomach so bad I have had cramping in my liver area on and off since. It feels just like it did when I had gallbladder pains, only I have no gallbladder now. Today is the first day since Thursday it has not been killing me. I just keep hoping that things will slow down a bit this week so I can enjoy my Anniversary next Saturday.

Hellllooooo August!

It's always the busiest month in our household. Steven and the kiddos go back to school starting on the 19th. Steven actually starts back on the 10th with a day break on the 18th, just long enough to take Ryker to the dentist. I actually dread when school starts for my kids, I am an odd parent, I know. Our 11th Anniversary will be on the 14th. And my big 3-0 birthday will be on the 23rd. Actually decided to do something for this year, so Steven is planning a Italian birthday dinner on the 21st with some couples from our church. We will actually be using the church so the kids can have their own pizza/movie party. We haven't decided if we will just do movies or play Scattegories or something. Yes, as is evident I am not much a partier. I do require a cake though, although my demand for a fancy one is not set is stone and right now simple sounds more my taste. Still debating on whether or not to ask off for the actual day, which would be a Monday, which happens to be my busiest day of the week. However, I am leaning on just making it a day with Ryker. We shall see.

I am finding this heat is making it difficult to even want to walk outside to go anywhere. It is way past unbearable. I feel bad for some of my coworkers who happen to be on the unlucky side of the hospital whose air conditioners went out this week and won't be fixed until Friday. By the time I get home at night I am finding it literally has zapped my energy just being out in it just the short ride home. I have gotten to be pretty addicted to my working out 6 days a week, but yesterday I laid down next to Ryker as he was napping and zonked out. I felt guilty for not getting the workout in, but boy did my body need the rest. Yesterday also came with a killer headache that I eventually had to sit in the tub to get rid of. I am so looking forward to Fall so I can start running outside on top of my usual workouts. I have added a lot of interval training in the past couple of weeks and my stamina kicked up pretty quick. Sadly, I am probably in better shape now since taking my leave of absence from derby. My nails have grown super long as well, making typing difficult.

I am so ready for some cooler weather... but not cold!

Big fat lazy day!

I woke up fairly early for me this morning (9ish on a Saturday). Actually the first one awake. Would have loved to sleep in, except I had worked out so much yesterday my whole core hurt. It was not giving me good rest. So I figured might as well get up and make the most of it. I was too sore to do much, but I still managed to get bored, but I figured I would be mindful of my boredom and use it wisely. I laid down here and there with no intention of naps, read some, watched the beginning of some movies but couldn't stay put all the way through, paced the floor, looked randomly at the internet, and took the family on a brief trip to the nearest gas station for fountain drinks and sour gummy worms. All in all it was a very successful lazy day.

Tomorrow after church our family is going to a swim party/BBQ with Kieran's Sunday School class. It will be at a lady from our church's house. She is also Gage's Sunday School teacher and they had another party last week just for his class. The kids are super excited to go, it will be Kieran's and Ryker's first swimming trip this year. If you don't count the small 2 ft. pool we have. I will be worn out by tomorrow evening.

8 week health nut!

This will be the 8th week for my healthy lifestyle and I think I may be officially hooked. I found that I had to FORCE myself to take a day off of working out on Monday. I went 6 days straight and could have gone a 7th. I have broadened beyond Zumba and I have incorporated Windsor Pilates, The Firm Wave, Slim in 6, and now other workouts off of Netflix (yeas they have watch instantly videos!). I have yet to get bored. Tonight I did a new video from Self magazines Bikini Ready series. It was a strength training video and boy did it kick my butt. I usually think my 5 pound weights are not enough resistance, but by the middle of this workout my arms were screaming and shaking. I figured since I was killing those I might as well keep going with the other body parts. So I did a Pilates buns and thighs workouts and ab routine. I actually feel really good right now, not exhausted. My diet has continued to remain a healthy balance. I have decreased my sugar intake and I am trying to avoid high fructose corn syrup. Despite what the commercial says, that stuff is BAD news. Just ask Dr. Oz. Think about it, anything that starts with "High fructose" and ends with "syrup" can't be good for you. Sadly it's hard finding foods without any. Even my old high fiber bars had it in them. But luckily I have found some good brands that have avoided them. Kashi is one that I love. Their cookies are awesome!

Steven, has joined my healthy kick. Guess it is contagious. Since he does most of the cooking I have been pushing the health stuff. He started running and lifting weights last week. He is even trying to break his regular soda habit. That's a bad one for him. Seems the kids are catching on too. Gage and Kieran occasionally ask me if "so and so" is healthy. I try to teach moderation more so with them. Fast food is fine, as long as it isn't that often. And it's not about getting "fat". Obviously they are no where near that, but I do try to teach them overall body health and food being used for energy and proper growth and development. Even Ryker understands why he needs some form of protein in his lunch of fruit and bread now. Not necessarily an issue now that he loves string white cheese and plain turkey. It also cracks me up when they ask for a banana for dessert. I grew up in house where my Dad always had a cake made, and still does. He now has Type 2 diabetes and I don't see him ever changing the way he eats. I could have easily continued down that road if I didn't do my own education. And it IS years of education, starting when I had to lose baby weight 9 years ago.

I just realized I went on a health rant... oops. My apologies.

P.S. I just love those "Eat this not that!" articles on yahoo!

Vacations over! :(

They are never long enough.

I left with my Mother and sister to Colorado last Friday and got back to Arkansas on Tuesday. My sister had to be back to work on Tuesday so we couldn't stay long. We still got a lot done despite being there a short time, not to mention getting to see the mountains. My aunt had a BBQ on Saturday and invited all my Mom's brothers and sister. 5 in total. 1 uncle I haven't seen in over 15 years. It was awesome, I even almost cried. Got to see 4 out of my 14 cousins on my Mom's side. Yes, I have a big family. I managed to do pretty well with my healthy eating on my trip and even got to utilize the high altitude for staying in shape. I took my sister out one day to do some running and street aerobics. It was a nice change up. The trip back was a long 12 hour trip but over all not to bad.

My husband kept the kiddos as well as my niece and nephew for the few days we were gone, and when I got back they stayed the rest of the week while my Mother went up to Missouri to see her best friend and float the river. We also did this last year. There were 5 kids total all week and sometimes 6 including the next door neighbor girl that came over most nights. It's been relatively quiet since they left on Friday.

Gage went to his Sunday School's teachers house yesterday for a swimming party. I think it was his first. He of coarse had a blast and says she taught him to swim. He was also the only boy there, but didn't complain at all. Kieran's class is supposed to have one next Sunday and the whole family is invited. May be the first time I get to swim all year.

Really not looking forward to work tomorrow. I know the dread is always more than what it is when I get there. All in all it's not bad, but it is stressful at times. I am pretty certain down the road after I get my LPC I will be going into Private Practice, probably at my church. Not really a secret, since I have told my Supervisor this before. The main reason is I won't have to do groups, at least not the kind I am accustomed to at the hospital. Who knows I may stick around and do PRN work at the hospital. It would be somewhat nice not to have to carry a caseload. Either way, I got some time, I am not rushing anything. I should be getting my LPC sometime next year. Another goal I will reach not too far into the future. I love goals. The next will be the Private Practice. :)

Happy 4th of July

Started off not the best. Steven's alarm didn't go off and "I" didn't have time to get ready for church, so he took the kiddos. At least I got some more sleep. So when the sun finally came out from under the clouds we took a short trip to the Dollar Tree, Starbucks, Sonic (drinks for kiddos), and then some fireworks. Steven is currently cooking out some burgers and making some homemade peach ice cream. All American everything. Kieran's next door neighbor friend came and played with her a little and now we are just getting ready to eat.

I did manage to start a blog for the kiddos today.
http://joy-and-wisdom.blogspot.com/

VBS week

Yesterday marked the end of a very long week for me. Steven and the kids of course stay home during the day so it's not such a big thing for them. Steven and I had the nursery kids (including Ryker), the most being on one night was only 4. I also did registration each night. The week went pretty smoothly, Ryker had a couple of bruises on his face from Monday and Tuesday night but had managed to heal by the end of the week. The theme was space, so of course Gage was super excited. He even got a set of blow up planets last night from one of the teachers who knows he is a big space fanatic. It was a fun week. And luckily it was a relatively cool one considering most are scorching. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday we had BBQ after wards. I think I managed my healthy eating fairly well. I even had Steven make homemade frozen yogurt with strawberries for last night and it was awesome. Working out was somewhat a problem for this week. I only missed 2 days of it though. Some days I dragged myself out of bed and did it early in the morning, others I left work a tad early and did it then. I even managed to do another last night after we got home near 10:00. That might have been a mistake because now I am super sore.

Next week I only work from Monday - Thursday and then I am on VACATION!

Something is working!

Because I have lost 10 pounds in just under a month!!! Woo hoo! Got me all motivated to keep going even stronger now.

On side news, Steven is in Oklahoma again working with his Dad. Even on summers off her has to do something I suppose. He took Gage with him to stay with Granny. I will be taking Ryker and Kieran to see Toy Story 3 later. In all honesty I am not a Toy story fan, but supposedly it is pretty good. Time to go make lunch for the kiddos.

Top 5 in awesomeness (diet foods)...

At least for this week.

1. Multigrain Cheerios



I don't know why I have avoided these for so long but they are addictive. Naturally low in calories (150 per serving with milk), not to mention 3 grams of fiber, 100% DRA in Iron, Folic Acid, and lots of other stuff. They have the right amount of sweetness to cure a sweet tooth. I eat them for breakfast of course but found I ate them for dinner one night this week as well.

2. Lean Cuisine (Particularly flatbreads)



I have the freedom at work to leave for lunch but hardly ever take myself up on that. Mainly I like to work through lunch so I can leave earlier. These are quick and awesome. I remember bringing one into staffing one day and the Doctor had huge eyes and asked "Is that what they are having for lunch today in the cafeteria?". Sadly he looked like a child who lost his toy when I told him that it wasn't. :(
Note: I eat a variety of lean cuisines for lunch, not just these, and they are all pretty darn good.

3. Thomas high fiber English Muffins 100 calories (not pictured)



Can't beat the 5 grams of fiber in only 100 calories. Keep in mind for every gram of fiber one consumes it keeps 7 calories from being absorbed. So technically these little gems only net 65 calories with no toppings. My Kiddos love them too, they put jelly on thiers. I prefer yogurt spread. Awesome either way.

4. Smart Ones Desserts



My three fav's are the chocolate chip cookie dough, brownie sundae, and the new peanut butter cup sundae. But I have tried most of them and they are all good. They range in calories from about 150-200. They also have fiber which most desserts lack. Plus the portions are perfect.

5. Kashi Oatmeal cookies



Most of Kashi's foods are good. Gage loves the bars. I prefer the cookies myself. Each cookie is about 130 calories with 4 grams of fiber and seven whole grains and ALA Omega-3.