Well here it is..(Decision, Decsions)

This day has been so long it feels like it is 2:30 in the freaking morning and it is only 10 something.

I have been struggling a bit for the past few months. Actually since August when my oldest son started Kindergarten. Of course like most parents I worried, and everyone tried to reassure me things would be great, he would love it. Well for once they were wrong. My poor son has had a test of year thus far. If you know Gage at all you know he has a spark about him. Something a lot of little boys have, but also in a way more special than I have ever seen. Gage has an energy that if it could be bottled and sold could cure everything from depression to obesity. Not only that but the kid LOVES everything. It is almost fascinating at times to see how he sees the pleasure in the simplest things. Well, apparently he has found him a teacher who doesn't appreciate this energy. Gage is constantly getting onto for "not controlling his body" which basically means he moves a lot. He does normal little boy behaviors and gets sent home with notes daily for pulling lights. Now there have definately been occasions he did deserve them for such things as arguing, 90% are from doing normal Gage things, playing in line, having to reminded to get to work, playing in the water. At first we tried to work with the teacher and help Gage adjust to her guidelines. But we realized you can't make a puppy stop being a puppy and these things are not things he can control at this point in time. Of course I asked him all the time if he liked school and of course he always said yes, but I started noticing his reluctance to want to go after being home on the weekends. I was noticing that spark he has was fading. That broke my heart. The final straw was when he wasn't allowed to go to the Christmas Party. We had one more meeting with the teacher and although we requested it with the Principal we were surprised to have the Vice Principle who was already on her side. Well we barely got a word and I tried to explain things, even requested another class, which all were "full". So I told Steven I would give it a few weeks until I made my final decsion to homeschool him. At first Steven was dead set against it. But the more he realized Gage's situation the more he agreed it was best for him. I talked to Gage and asked him once again if he liked school. He of course said yes, but when I asked if he would rather stay home with me and do school there even if it meant he wouldn't get to play as much with the other kids, his reaction told me I sensed right. He wanted to do school at home. So now I am doing what I can to get the ball rolling for that. Next week is the Valentines Party and if I was a betting person I would bet he won't get to go. We shall see. Nonetheless the decision is made. He is going to be homeschooled for the time being. Now next year who knows, he may be calm, or I may find a teacher who does great with him. I am not closed minded about any possibilites. I never in a million years thought I would homeschool, but right now I have no doubt it would be best for him.

On another note, I finally recieved the call I had been waiting for almost a year last week. The legal clinic at the University called regarding the possibility of getting our non-profit paperwork filled out to get our official status so we can start getting grants and funding. Well today was the intake to see if we are eligible and of course I got the call later today that we are indeed and they are accepting our case. This is a proud moment for me (but not as proud as I will be when it is all done). It may take 2 semesters to get it all done and get incorporated and all that other business that goes into it, but I am patient, I have waited this long, no problem for me to wait longer. I am doing it all on God's time, not mine.

Anyways I am sure this is long but I haven't had a chance to write it this week until now!