I hate this crap!!

Gosh I am so pissed and upset, I have been balling my eyes out for at least 2 hours. We were getting ready to leave to go eat when we got a call from our landlord. Apparently he is wanting to sell this house. He said we have the first option to buy. I have wanted to buy this house since we moved in 2 years ago. Of course Stevem didn't want to, thinking of every thing wrong with it. SO I tell him I want to buy it of course. Well we cant. We couldnt get the loan after I just quit my job and we have no down payment. We pay $750 a month which is about $125 less than what normal rent for a place like this is. We got so lucky with this house. Our landlord has been awesome, I just wasnt expecting this. I have no reason why he is selling as Steven forgot to ask. He also forgot to tell him I am pregnant. So here are my choices.

-rent another house which will either be smaller or crappier and pay $100 more a month. to stay around here. or find a place outside of town, pull the kids from everything they know, and our new church.

-quit school, let DH apply anywhere in the US for a job that pays great and get a nice house.

both of the above causing me to be resentful.

or
-find a way to buy this house so we dont have to move!

That is what i want, but because of our situation we are unable to. I hate this. I am hurting so bad right now. I dont want to move, i hate moving, i literally hate it. I have had to move everytime I have been pregnant and even when Gage was 3 months old and when Kieran was 6 months. As you can see I have moved enough. I hate the packing, and each time it is more shit, we have lived here longer than any other place and have accumatlated so much. We werent expecting to move for at least 2 years and I would have been graduated and we could move anywhere and could of built the home we wanted. Steven doesn't get it, I dont think he understood just how upset I was until I told him how depressed I would be. I am hiding out in my bedroom with the door locked, crying my eyes out, just wishing this wasnt happening. I am already dealing with so many changes right now, dont get me wrong, I am usually good about them, but there is too many and this one is sending me over the edge. I really dont want to move, I really don't!! I havent been this upset in a long time and the sad thing is there is nothing that can make me feel better. Nothing short of a miracle. I am starting to feel sick now, i dont know what else to say, i better quit typing as I am rambling now.